[ Isn't it fitting, that his child would learn the worst of his lessons from him, and subject him to this very thing? Silco doesn't know. He doesn't know a lot of things that are being withheld from him. Isha. Zaun's future. He's been given enough pieces and parts of the future that he knows where it goes, and he knows that without him it all falls apart.
Fitting, maybe. Were it not his life's work, he would feel pride in that. That some know-nothing little thing had been smarter, better, more witty that it could fall apart without him. If it weren't for the fact that it sounds like Zaun is falling apart without him... Everything he'd worked to erect falling apart...
He was angry about it instead.
But he doesn't voice that to Jinx. Not right now. Not with all of this. With his failure in his face. ]
I don't lie to you. [ But she's right. He doesn't say it, either. ]
So I will tell you the truth, Jinx. I do not tell you these things, because they are petty. Because I know you talk to him.
[ But he is in the right. He knows he is. ]
He has jumped me more times than then. I have refrained from violence, which is why you don't know about it.
[ Of course, the one time he does not, she walks in. ]
I know what is at stake. [ He steps closer and crouches down to her level. ] I gave everything for Zaun. I no more want to see it destroyed than you do.
[ But, But. If he had to choose... He knows what he would choose. Right now they coincide, and in fact, Jinx is showing more drive to fix this than he thought she ever would. Maybe she really is stepping up now that he's gone. (SILCO NO...) ]
I'm not going to let it be set adrift. I put too much into it, to let it go now.
[ Even though Jinx is here.
If she stayed here, then he would look away from Zaun. Always. Because his entire world is in this room. No matter what he tells himself, no matter what he thinks. There is a reason Silco doesn't consider Jinx killing him, because it would torch the only thing he has. ]
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Date: 2025-03-10 06:05 pm (UTC)Fitting, maybe. Were it not his life's work, he would feel pride in that. That some know-nothing little thing had been smarter, better, more witty that it could fall apart without him. If it weren't for the fact that it sounds like Zaun is falling apart without him... Everything he'd worked to erect falling apart...
He was angry about it instead.
But he doesn't voice that to Jinx. Not right now. Not with all of this. With his failure in his face. ]
I don't lie to you. [ But she's right. He doesn't say it, either. ]
So I will tell you the truth, Jinx. I do not tell you these things, because they are petty. Because I know you talk to him.
[ But he is in the right. He knows he is. ]
He has jumped me more times than then. I have refrained from violence, which is why you don't know about it.
[ Of course, the one time he does not, she walks in. ]
I know what is at stake. [ He steps closer and crouches down to her level. ] I gave everything for Zaun. I no more want to see it destroyed than you do.
[ But, But. If he had to choose... He knows what he would choose. Right now they coincide, and in fact, Jinx is showing more drive to fix this than he thought she ever would. Maybe she really is stepping up now that he's gone. (SILCO NO...) ]
I'm not going to let it be set adrift. I put too much into it, to let it go now.
[ Even though Jinx is here.
If she stayed here, then he would look away from Zaun. Always. Because his entire world is in this room. No matter what he tells himself, no matter what he thinks. There is a reason Silco doesn't consider Jinx killing him, because it would torch the only thing he has. ]